Grow

When you start something, you usually find this superficial pride in merely talking about it.

It’s ironic, as most who talk, rarely act. The mere act of talking about it satisfies the brain to believe the rest will fall into place. It’s a false sense of gratification. Yet, if you were looking for feedback, would you take food to the table when the people you’re asking to judge you aren’t eating? They can criticise, but they have nothing to lose. They’re immune to the loss, yet benefit the win. Don’t be fooled.

They can be convincing too. Like a cut through cloth, they find it easy to break down those who have made things real that didn’t exist before. Originality is often shunned when there is no comparison. Usually the comparison is close, but not that close. Top level won’t find it, but if you dug a little deeper, you’d find it.

It isn’t perfect, but it is real. I like it, and it fit the mould I built, as if scratching an itch that only I felt. Others too, but it sounds better that way. There was no other motivation, it wasn’t fuelled by money, or status, or anything else. That shit means nothing if the your mission has no substance. You’ll be discarded from your industry and that’ll be it. Decision makers don’t buy hype, they buy stories, experiences and people.

That isn’t particularly a shot at anyone, but more of a reminder to myself on how much is still to be done. Don’t judge yourself to harsh, don’t be fooled, just work. The highs & the lows, they can’t be controlled, but the work can, so keep going, man.

This world we live in, is filled with fake praise. Fake honesty. Fake everything, as we yearn for the approval from others who stand on insignificance, based on a following of lifestyles that don’t exist, and lose focus on what actually feeds oneself. Wages that feed mediocrity. What if I told you, that ideas cost money? Things you suggest, cost time. Most would shudder doing the work. That’s cool, because weakness exists in leaving ideas to waste. Recognition follows those who invest, even in bad ideas. The learnings grow the brain like roots. They penetrate the ground and begin the flow.

When you choose your meal, nobody else really cares what you’re eating, but they will if they’re comparing it to what they’re eating. That’s as close as I can get to hitting it on the head.

Anyway, it’s cool, and it’s brutal, and that’s at the same damn time. Things that can ruin a morning, fuel the afternoon. Podcasts have replaced 90’s hip hop. Lunch breaks are filled with to-do lists. At first I loved the independence, now I hate it. There’s nobody else to blame. Liberation exists in that though, as controlling the choices is what motivated me to start.

Who am I kidding? I love it.

Keep going man, keep going.

C.f